surviving another holiday

This has been an emotional 2 weeks, last week would have been mama's birthday (it's easy to remember as it is Joann's b'day too) I was ok with it, then I got the egg from Misty. That set the emotions that were simmering into to a full boil. That night we went to the play HATS it's about a woman turning 50. There was one part when the mother of the b'day girl gives her a gift that was the gift "its time to do what you desire and haven't done yet" this set me crying. It is a humorous play but I found it hard to laugh much. The weekend has been rough I am going through a lot of changes and not knowing and it has made me emotional as all get out. Becky being sick is hard, but hopefully they now know what is happening. She has a ligament in the stomach area that is too tight pushing on the artery to her tummy restricting blood flow and causing a lot of pain. Today they told her there is a plan of action that might help. Now if I would only find out about my job or lack of one. Even if I find out I have a job I don't know what grade or school. Then there is always the waiting to find out when they will foreclose on the house and we will be moving. I feel as if my fate is resting in the hands of many others. I wish I had my mom there to talk to, I know she couldn't solve any problems but there are days I just plain miss her, its been 25 years but there is still a whole there that can never be filled. I will be ok I know this but I am ready to be ok today! I dont do well with unknown factors. I am ready to get on with life and make decisions I guess I am learning patience and letting go.

THIS IS SO EASY TO MAKE, IT TAKES LONGER TO SHOP THAN TO MAKE. i FOUND THE TUTORIAL ON READYMADE, NOW BECKY WANTS TO USE THEM AT HER WEDDDING SO BACK TO WALMART i GO TO BUY MORE PLATES YAHOO...I LOVE EASY FUN THINGS TO MAKE...by the way the house and laundry were ignored today, but I did finish the book I was reading

spring break

Yahoo I am on my first spring break in 8 years, usually we only get good friday off this year we get friday and monday! Next year (if I am working) it will be a whole week. Joann has to work so I get a couple of days home alone. I have my own TO DO LIST: clean my craft room (it has been trashed since I found out I was becoming a grandma!) make a hootie hider for a shower gift laundry I thought I might put away sweaters but its been in the 60s again, read a book, waatch a movie, and the list keeps on going. It is nice to be able to think of the time to do something, and Idid not bring any school work home.

yahoo 4 days off!

ok so I did it again, I am known for saying one thing and the world hears it completely different. This morning I read on FB that my oldest was not feeling well, so I commented, now you will get to experience "motherhood" or some such thing....she responded back very quickly I AM NOT PG. hello that was the last thing I thought of, the deal is she babysits a 6mo old (who just got out of the hosp with RSV) and a 4 yr old on Tuesdays and has for a few years. I was thinking being sick and having kids!

How can I be almost 58 and still not "get it" sometimes. They do tell me I keep them laughing at work.

stressed mama

talked to Becky today, for the past 5 weeks she has had severe stomach pains. They found out she has ulcers in her ecophogaus, intestines, stomach. They have tested her for crones, colitis, and many other things. They don't know what is causing the ulcers, the Dr finally gave her some vicoden for the pain. It has been so painful she cant hold the baby to nurse.
Today she went for another "scope" and they found out she has a blocked vein...yet another doctor this time a vascular surgeon.
In the meantime she has taken matters into her own hands and went to an acupuncturist this is helping her more than anything.
It is so hard to be in Modesto with her in Portland. I just want to take time off and go up there and help, but alas I have to have faith and let God and Jim take care of her. Being a mom is so hard.

Becky (AJ's m0m) wanted a tutu for alice to have her picture taken in.....so I made one. They are so easy to make and fun, The first one was red, yellow and orange. Then I went on to this one and of course had to add to it ribbons and flowers. It was fun I see many more tutus in the future. Alice did not like the way it tasted or felt (at first) but she got used to it. She is so photogentic Becky took this with just a little kodak type camera....its all in the model and the tutu

well Alice Jean is now 6 mos old and very different then just a few months ago.

We skype and I get to watch her do all her new things. It is fascinating to watch her grow. When I talk to Becky on the phone she is always talking, esp when she nurses. Last week I watched her play with her pacificer, she sits up by herself now and grabs and plays with things. I read a kids math boook last week that said if we grew as much in the first 9 months as we do invitro we would be as big as a mountain. I'm glad are growing is controlled.

Now we have sound out we are going to be grandmas again in Nov. Taylor and Nina are expecting, yahoo. we are all excited.

Who knows now that Ali is in love we may have more on the way. When the Mcleans start reproducing they dont know when to stop.

alice jean

lots has happened since the last blog, of course for the last week I have been trying to remember how to log in brain in vacation mode!

Alice Jean was born on 9-9-09 at 2:22pm to 2 very delighted and exhausted parents. It is amazing how the upcoming arrival of a new person certainly changes the world. I went to work but was not focused. Her auntie and nana stopped their world to be there for her arrival. the pictures taken by Nana defintely showed how much her father fell in love with her at first sight. It is amazing to see that pure look of love on his face. Of course everyone who looks at her gets that same grin, it is so easy to fall in love with a new baby. we all love the innocence.

new look for the back yard

We are having a wedding Friday night, T our son is getting married. Next year it will be a Bulgarian wedding. Then Sat afternoon we will have B's family baby shower. Now my bride promised me that we would not go overboard on fixing the house up. I will admit she did better only new curtains outside and no new furniture.
now if we could get the inside going...my craftroom awaits me

mothers day was quiet! I needed a rough 2 days at work. We took each other out and saw the play Hairspray. It was great fun. Today I found out I will be teaching 2nd grade next year. I didn't realize how stressed I was about it until today when we got our assignments. I feel like a heavy weight was taken off of me. Everyone says be grateful you have a job, yeah that's easy for them to say they knew their grade they were teaching (or so they thought) I am excited to be there. Let's wait and see how I feel in Sept!

peaches in their teen age years (not ready to be eaten but out where all can be seen ....TEASES) is this what all teenagers are like?

This is the tree I park next to at work. wanted to share the view.

friends

Yesterday we went to see the movie "The Soloist" with Jamie Foxx and Robert Downey Jr. It is not a feel good all over movie, but it is one that makes you think and get a better understanding of what some homeless are like. They are people not nameless faces. I am uncomfortable around the homeless, they take me out of my comfort zone. I don't make eye contact with them. This bothers me, I feel like I should be a better person than this.
another thing that bothered me is I saw behaviors in the main character that hopefully today a teacher would recognize as "different" and the system would be able to help him before the schizaphernia (Iknow it is misspelled) got out of control. We often think these kids are just a little off, but could we help them sooner. This character was not violent but so many are, again sometimes I think fear stops us from doing anything.
The real bottom line in the movie was sometimes all someone needs is a friend, not be saved, not to be rescued just someone to listen to them, to care about them to be a friend. I think that is the hardest thing to do, accept someone for who they are and be their friend.

yesterday, daddy's b'day

we celebrated the april b'days yesterday. The weather was beautiful, the food was good and we are all healthy. What else could we ask for? it was nice seeing Danny and Joann plus the regular California crowd. What was also nice was having my Joann there, for years she has always worked weekends.
On a sad note another in-law on Joanns side is dying. this has been a very rough year for her side of the family. I am hoping this is the last of them.

one of the perks of being a teacher is you get to do somethings you wouldn't necessarily do at home but always wanted to do. I don't know why I wouldn't do it but I would not. One of these things is have a Chia pet. Let me introduce you to Lucy. the children named her and she is our science experiment. This week we also had a tarantula and a desert tortoise visit. I DID NOT touch the spider. I have respect for him. I also noticed the kids did too. The torstise's name is AT short for attack tortoise, so the kids didn't touch him either. I am curious to see who shows up tomorrow.

sofa sofa sofas

My wife has decided we need a new sofa...maybe if Becky and Jim buy ours. We spent the day sitting on this sitting on that. I felt like goldilocks and the many sofas. Of course I liked the expensive buttery feeling leather one, so did wifey but we couldn't decide on a color.
what was more fun was helping Marti buy a new sofa and chair, that only took about an hour. It is so muchmore fun to spend someone elses money

my first baby bunting for Alice Jean

Ok I found out I am having my first grandbaby...in Sept. This is not my first grandchld, the other 2 came out as 8 and 10 year old boys. I love them but it's not the same. The first baby also happens to be a girl. Her name is Alice Jean, named after both maternal great grandma's.
One of the best things of having little ones is I get to sew for her. The boys just aren't into granma making them jammies, hats, dolls etc. so a lot of my blogging is about the crafting I will get to do. I made my first bunting today..wow how easy and she will need lots of them living in oregon!